Date: 2030-01-01 14:46 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Everything prior to this entry has been friends-locked. Most everything after this entry will also be friends-locked, unless I get drunk and forget to friends-lock something. Which is totally going to happen.

Date: 2009-07-08 12:36 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

i just watched a video on total knee replacement surgery while i ate
a really greasy, meaty slice of pizza. ugh. barf city, population: me.

Date: 2009-06-04 12:48 Subject: the next time you say "forever", i will punch you in the face Security: Public

maybe this is a sign that i need to get out more, but you guys, i'm so
excited about neko case tonight that i can barely stand it.

Date: 2009-06-02 20:38 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

it is boiling hot in my apartment tonight so of course i thought, ooh, i should totally turn the oven on and make myself a hand-tossed pizza with some of this dough i need to use up.

it is a fucking amazing pizza (whole wheat crust, a plethora of cheeses, olives like whoa) but now being in my home is a lot like being on the surface of the sun. only the sun probably has a lot less cat hair.

Date: 2009-06-02 10:37 Subject: everyone cries when they're stabbed Security: Public

i really want to see sita sings the blues tonight or tomorrow but i can't actually afford it. bank of america is flipping me over and anally raping me on a weekly basis with their crazy fees, and i should probably spend the little money i have left on, like, cat food. but i still really want to see it on a big screen, and i downloaded a high-res copy of it last week, so maybe one of my friends with technical know-how and access to a large screen of some fashion could help me out.

i also really, really want to see drag me to hell. i could probably get completely unsecret admirer t. to take me, but i have this rule about never being in a dark room with him. dude has a hard enough time keeping his hands to himself in broad daylight, i do not need to up the stakes here.

(actually it's probably not fair for me to hang out with t. he's made it beyond clear that he wants a piece of this sweet ass, and while i've told him it's never ever going to happen, i'm probably sending hugely mixed messages by spending time with him. i don't know.)

yesterday i got a friend request on facebook from an ex-hookup who i never expected to hear from again. i haven't spoken to him in a decade -- the last time we saw each other was disastrous in the extreme. back then he was a cad, a rake, an unrepentant coozehound, and now... well, now he's at least repentant, since he begged my forgiveness for the way he treated me so long ago. but his profile says he's married and looking for "random play", so... a tiger can't change his stripes, you know? at least not totally. of course, back when things went so sour between us i went off the friggin'
deep end and behaved like a scorned teenager, all invective and impotent black rage. not much has changed in that regard, although i've learned to hold back for the most part.

it wouldn't surprise me at all if he propositioned me in the very near future, and i'm not at all sure how i'd respond. maybe i'm out of line in assuming he's going to want to hook up again. i'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt but it's kind of hard given our history. but maybe this is a learning opportunity for me. i just... haven't figured out what i'm supposed to be learning yet.

Date: 2009-06-01 23:08 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

life has improved about one thousand fold over the past month. even the hard days are somehow easier. my very soul feels lighter.

the funny thing about removing negative things from my life is that now good things are pouring in from all over. i know that's a pretty obvious thing, but to me it wasn't so obvious. i couldn't see how negative the negative was. forest for the trees or whatever.

Date: 2009-05-26 07:08 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

so, last night i drank two bottles of wine and threw up on an oscillating fan. and how was your night?

Date: 2009-05-21 19:49 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

man, alex trebek really enunciates the christ out of "twitter".

Date: 2009-05-18 21:55 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

i burned the everloving christ out of my neck region yesterday morning. i was pulling a sheet pan of croissants out of the oven, and as i lifted it up i thought, "oh hey, i wonder if the bottoms are burnt like usual." (my oven blows.) i picked up a croissant with my free hand, and sort of absentmindedly kept raising the sheet pan, and the edge of the pan went right up against my throat. it sort of looks like a tracheotomy scar, except a little too low.

i'm rapidly coming to the realization that i'm probably going to die relatively young, in a ridiculous freak accident. the signs, they are all coming together. i should stay away from open manhole covers, for sure.

Date: 2009-02-16 21:53 Subject: epic, epic fail. Security: Public

i'm having a really, really rough day. it would be great if life had do overs like in four-square. but it doesn't. and in any case i would need way more than my share of do overs to repair all the damage. also, i fucking hated four-square and this is a crappy metaphor.

i could really use a hug. or a lot of gin and a fist fight in the street. you make the call, internet.

Date: 2009-01-30 05:45 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

i totally felt that earthquake. did you?

Date: 2009-01-06 22:17 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

i haven't had caffeine in 48 hours.

i would also cheerfully stab you right in the face for a cup of coffee. with a smile on my face and a song in my heart.

Date: 2008-12-17 22:07 Subject: well, crap. Security: Public

i'm looking up some stuff on name changes, and whether or not i should just
get my name legally changed before i get my passport so i don't have to
prove to the passport office that i've been using this name my whole entire
life, and guess what? according to wikipedia, i am legally barred from
changing my name to "delicious".

that is some serious bullshit right there, people.

Date: 2008-12-15 07:03 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

dear internets, why is tom cruise wandering unfettered about the today studios? does the man not have adequate wranglers?

Date: 2008-12-14 19:21 Subject: okay, whatever. Security: Public

i'm bored.

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out I'm a Self-Improving Self-Knowing Tree Hugger